Thursday, June 25, 2009
Yesterday finally played my buffet at Classic with H. Fucking shiok~ Saw Kendra and Kansie there. I think we had a hell lot of fun chui-ing at guys. I saw him like 3 years ago. Every year I would only see him once and this time it seems that he is appearing at Classic very frequently. He is damn power. Not being desperate or what. I thought he broke up with his girlfriend then now he has another one. Halfway when I was just about to sleep, Daniel called me over to his house to mahjong. F was there too. I said I'm broke, and F agreed to be my sponsor. Haha, even for mahjong. I still haven't had a wink since the bus ride from school to PP. Daniel cooked for us today. The four of us sat down and had lunch with home-cooked food. It felt so good somehow, not because of F but I suddenly felt like crying cause its been long since I had lunch with more than 2 more people.
Daniel asked me to go cruise with him, F is going. I want to go so badly. Not because F is going, even if he isn't but I want to go. I want to relax. This few days so many things has been driving me crazy, I don't have the time to really sit down and just feel that there is nothing to worry about. Plus with F, I won't have to be thinking about him which it makes it even better for me. But Mum doesn't allow cause I would have to skip school for 2 days . Should I just go quietly?
I know many people will be disappointed in me cause of F or the cruise but ya, nobody will ever understand how I feel. I feel that we're better now. Just now we talk about how we got to know each other infront of some new guy at PP, it wasn't like he was hiding me or something. So ya, I know what I'm doing. It's the cruise I'm dying for. I want my break too.
Oh ya, swine flu is really bad in RP. We don't have school till 1st july but we still have to do our class work online ALONE. Still have to log into leo at 8.30 otherwise considered late!
ACCEPTANCE 5:12 PM
